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Sometimes you got to break down and breathe
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The place where you break down and start digging the desert sand for where you left your heart behind before you got distracted - because all you are now is just an entire heap of flesh without His Spirit." - from Liling's blogger.
DEAR GOD, IT'S YOUR HEART I WANT TO TRUST.
Matt was preaching on the issue about how sin is more than just committing murder, lying, cheating etc. Every inclination of the thoughts of our heart has only evil all the time. It is in the human nature to destroy, not always literally, but it starts with the smallest things - competitiveness and even jealousy. Outwit, outplay and outlast. Is that really all we ever think of? God grieved when he sees all those thoughts clouding our mind. It aches His heart more than anyone else's. But it never seems to bother us, does it? All these while i've been feeling like crap cos i know that it wasn't the right thing to do. Still, i harbor those thoughts and cause myself to turn away from x. Perhaps Kris was right, that x was doing the same cos the feeling was mutual. (this is so not about guys pls) But i still felt so argh everytime the same thing happens over again like a stupid broken recorder that's on playback. Honestly, this is not all. I can't get over the fact that this darn insecurity crap is churning inside of me everytime i think of xyz. It's especially about taking on the role of a xyz thats making me feel so unworthy. Like i really don't deserve it at all simply cos i just ain't good enough. It's not about the physical insecurities, really. I'm so over that and really can't be bothered to kill my brain cells over what others think of me. But it's just so difficult to be something when you're just not up to it. I'm not backing out cos i'm a quitter. Cos if you know me well enough you would know i'm not. Thing is, i just can't face the fact that it is His plan for me. It is the best eventually, i know. Just give me some time to adjust to it. Perhaps then, i'll get used to it. For now, just let me get used to the rest of the world and slowly fade away from it all.
ps: i'm thankful for my mt oral, even though i think i kinda screwed it up. the topic was pretty simple and i actually had got things to elaborate on. thank God.
(chants) i can do this, i can do this, i can do this
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Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Alice in wonderland coming to theaters in 2010. Starring Johnny Depp and Anne Hathaway. Spell excitement.Labels: random
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Charmaine is God's Child.
(Bear with me, I'm just learning to love.)
I'm priceless in His eyes. 20th April is a good date to remember. Was a Raffesian, now proud to a Queenstownian.
1C'06/2C'07 and 3D'08/4D'09 pwns. Photography captures my memories. Sports and music are definitely inevitable.
Retail Therapy makes me happy. Facebook is cool. :)
"Above all else, guard your heart, for its the wellspring of life."
-Proverbs 3:12